I'm back! It has been the craziest 3 weeks, let me tell you! I won't bore you with all of the details, but let me just say, I have not felt that kind of stress in a looonnng time! But alas, we are here in beautiful Spokane Valley Washington and we are about 60% moved into our house! I usually get all jacked up on Diet Coke and unpack for like 48 straight hours. I usually have all of my pictures hung, closets organized, decorations placed, and all of my furniture in place no more than a week after we are moved in. This time...things are a bit different. I have a baby who makes crazy messes everywhere she goes. Bless her heart, she is a needy baby and likes to be joined at my hip if her eyes are open! So it has been a lot harder getting things done. Also, I told my husband that if he was going to ask me to move our family twice across 3 states in less than 7 months, the least he could do was buy me some new stuff once we got here! So, I am patiently waiting to decorate until I am able to buy some new fun pieces.
So, with all of that going on I was not a very good girl. I did a lot of stress eating, a lot of fast food over the two days we were traveling here. A lot of continental breakfast food while we lived in a hotel, and a lot of pizza the first few nights we were in our house and didn't have our kitchen un-packed. However. The SECOND we were unpacked in the kitchen, I got back under control, and I had a perfect week last week! I have not weighed myself however. I always like to give myself a few weeks to get back on track and loose the pounds I inevitably gained during my bender so that I don't panic and throw my scale against a wall!
The other reason is this; I am trying really hard to change my thought process about this journey. I am reading an amazing book that an old roommate of mine suggested to me after she read my blog. It is called "Remembering Wholeness". There is no way I could begin to tell you about this book on this blog. It is really life changing and I suggest you all read it. She is very religious and uses scripture and spirituality to support her theories. What I am getting from this is that I must take the victim mentality I have lived in my entire adult life and throw it away. I must change my thoughts from what I don't want, to what I do want. I must trade in negativity for positivity. Take those things in your life that have triggered you and throw them out! The scale can be a great way to feel rewarded. But I have used it as a way to punish myself. I seriously used to weigh every single day. And if i was up even an ounce, I would punish myself, cry, throw a fit, and then feel completely defeated the rest of the day. But it didn't stop there. If I hadn't lost enough, I had the same reaction. I was only satisfied if I lost a significant amount in the last 24 hours. It was crazy abusive and I am over it!
I am learning so much from this book and I am so excited to learn as much as I can from it and see my life change! I am excited to be back on the ole blog. I see that my efforts to start a contest kind of flopped. It's ok. I still feel strongly about the reasons I do this. And in the last few weeks a few of my readers have reached out to me and I can't even tell you how fulfilling it is to know I was able to help someone feel less alone. I may not know all of you, but I love you. That may seem strange. But when I write these posts. I feel inspired. Sometimes, I write things I didn't intend to write. I hope my words reach the person they need to reach (besides me!) and that you feel my love through my words. I feel like those of us who struggle with these issues need to band together. We are a family! I really feel that way. Women can help heal each other, it's in our nature!
So, take my advice, read the book, carry on, and have a blessed day!