Nov 29, 2010

Back on The Wagon 

i have a little bit different philosophy when it comes to weight loss and the holidays.  I believe that if you live your life in a way that is healthy 95% of the time, it is okay to have a good time eating what you enjoy during holiday celebrations.  A lot of diet and nutrition specialists will tell you to still govern yourself, and go in with a game plan.  I on the other hand say this.  Just enjoy it, be accountable, and know that come Monday, you will be back on the wagon.  Does this mean go crazy?  NO.  Does this mean eat everything in site and then repent for it later...NO.  This means, celebrate, enjoy, don't be a slave to the scale.  You may gain a pound or two, but, it the big picture, that is not a big deal.  You can loose those few pounds by the end of the following week doing what we know we should.  I for one am DONE punishing myself for enjoying food.  I don't eat like that but a few times a year, and darn it, I think we earn it every now and again. 
If you are anything like me, you will be so sick of eating by the end of the weekend, you will be ready for some lean meat and green veggies!  

So, now the challenge is to prepare yourself for the next round of holidays.  BE 100% BETWEEN NOW AND THEN!!!  YOU CAN DO IT.  Do yourself a favor and follow whatever plan you are on 100% for the next four weeks so you don't have to end the holiday season 10 pounds up!  I feel like if I can end this season 5 pounds down from where I was last week, I will call it a victory.  If you are at your goal weight, make it a goal to end the season at that same weight.  IT CAN BE DONE! 

Nov 25, 2010

The Results Are In!

A picture can say a thousand words right?  As I look at these pictures, more than a thousand words come to mind.  Thousands upon thousands of words!  I am not done with this journey yet, but I have made incredible strides and I can't help but be emotional when I look at these pictures.  I don't even remember that sad looking girl 48 pounds ago.  I feel like part of her has died and a new happier girl has been born to take her place.  i still have days where she creeps in, but I am so thankful that I have learned how to be happier, and healthier! 

Total Weight Loss So Far

48 pounds~

Nov 21, 2010


When I started TSFL I made myself a 90 day goal. I promised myself that I wouldn't cheat ONCE during that 90 days.  And I didn't.  I lost 33 pounds in 90 days and started to feel better than I have ever felt in my whole life.  Once that 90 days was up, I decided just to stay on the program but give myself a few cheat days here and there.  It is crazy how that tiny little inch I gave myself can become a mile.  During the 90 days, I was so restricted, and had such a clear goal.  Now that I have reached that goal, and am kind of in limbo, it is harder to be so strict.  I don't really need to loose too much more weight, and to be honest my focus is on trying for another baby, so I am having a hard time figuring out a motive to not cheat.  Right now, I am trying to stay as strict as I can when I am at home, or work, but I gotta tell you, when I go to my in-laws house that is full of tempting junk food, it is really tough.  I did cheat a bit last night, and I regret it.  I want to give myself leeway now and again, but at this point in my journey, I am trying to learn how to have balance. And somehow, this is harder than the restriction. 

Nov 15, 2010


Many women are guilty of this...we keep an array of clothing in our closet ranging from our smallest size up to our "fat clothes".  We have ALL done this.  We keep our "skinny clothes" as a "goal", and we keep our "fat clothes" just in case. Why?  The other night, I was watching "Ruby" and she was having such a hard time getting rid of her dresses she wore when she weighed 715 pounds.  I have never owned clothing that big, but I have been holding on to a closet FULL of clothing I can't wear anymore.  I guess part of me still doesn't believe that I can maintain this weight.  Maybe another part of me worries that if I don't, I will have nothing to wear.  But, the other morning, I was laying in bed wide awake in the wee early hours, and I jumped out of bed and began purging.  I ended up with two garbage bags full to donate, 2 plastic totes full to consign, and some stuff I just threw out.  On one hand it felt good to see all of it gone.  On the other hand I felt sad giving up some of my favorite clothes and it felt weird looking at my empty closet afterward.  It also felt very symbolic.  A lot of the clothes I had were purchased during dark times in my life when I felt so out of control. Looking at my clothes I had some very vivid memories of the doom I felt while trying on the clothes and looking in the dressing room mirror.  Some of the clothes I own were purchased to hide my body.  I also had a few outfits that I had purchased as my "goal" outfits and before I could ever wear them they were too big.  It was a bitter sweet experience, one I needed to do.  The weirdest thing to think about is that soon, I may be purging the clothing I am wearing right now!  That will be an exciting day!
So with all of this purging, it made me think.  What else in my life can I get rid of that is weighing me down? Again, I was watching "Ruby" and her therapist encouraged her to change 5 things in her life. Exchange 5 bad or negative things for 5 positive or healthy alternatives.  So, in the spirit of purging, here is what I came up with for my own life.

1. Get rid of Diet Soda/drink more water
2. Cut back on TV/ read more/move more
3. Stop staying up so late/get more sleep
4. Less time on computer/ Pray more, Study gospel more
5. get rid of selfish time wasting behaviors/spend more time with my son

So, the purge has begun.  I am taking baby steps towards shedding the "old" me. The me who was weighed down in so many ways.  This journey is far from over. I have so much to learn and so much room to grow. I am so thankful for the light that TSFL has helped shine into my dark places.For the first time ever, I feel like I am getting my head straight!

Nov 3, 2010

New Favorites!! 

I have had 13 of these bottles of syrup in my pantry since I started the program.  Some of them I use more often than others.  The peanut butter syrup was one I didn't use until today!  I mixed it in my Vanilla shake and it was AMAZING!!  Better yet, I mixed it in my Banana Cream shake, and it was to die for!!
Another fun thing I did the other day was I mixed a table spoon of Pumpkin Pie syrup in my original pancake and then added pumpkin pie spice to it.  It was a yuuuummmy pancake!

I loooove the MF soft serves...I eat one every night, well the other night I added Toasted Marshmallow to the Peanut Butter soft serve, and it was so naughty!!! I loved it.  

Just thought I would share some of my recent creations with you!!

Welcome Back! 

Turns out that loosing weight, eating right, getting more sleep and exercising is a great way to get your brain back!  Who knew!!  Tonight I was running and I realized...I was smiling.  Smiling?? Who smiles while they are running besides a person who just got away with something??  I got to has been a long time since I have felt depressed, confused, or lethargic.  For the first time ever I feel just good!  Things seem doable, my life doesn't seem so bleak.  Do I still have bad days? Sure I do, but lately they seem few and far between. I feel like I have my brain back.

Nov 2, 2010

Well, I did it!  I reached my 3 month goal!!!  I set a few goals when I started TSFL and today I accomplished one of them!  I reached 145 pounds.  That means I have lost 33 pounds since August 9th and 43 pounds since this time last year.  Being 145 means a lot to me.  It means that I weigh less than I did when I graduated high school, it means I weigh less than I have in my entire adult life, it means that I was able to achieve a goal I have never been able to achieve in my entire life.  Another goal I thought I may never be able to achieve is that I have been 100% committed to my goal and have not cheated once!  I also have been running again...all in all things are good for me right now!  I am so grateful for the changes that TSFL has helped make in my life.  I have been able to do things I never EVER thought possible.  
Pictures to come soon!  

My new goal...135 pounds!